The months before our day felt long, and all of a sudden the week of was here.
I felt calm, I have long been at peace with my decision to marry you, even long before you asked me to. Vendors were drilling me with questions about the music, the payments, the photos, the guests, the dessert, the food, the drinks, but my head remained calm as I got to marry you. Three days before, I got a stomachache that weaken my entire body. You said it was the nerves. I guess my heart caught up with my head. I was not worried something would go wrong, as we have defied a lot of challenges in our almost 15 years together and what could one day more be?. But my heart felt the greatness of what was about to happen. Since I was 16 I have dreamt of this day and my teenage self was ecstatic. The morning of, you said "see you at the altar" and I left to get ready. The morning passed in a blissful blink filled with my closest friends and suddenly I had my white dress on. I see my mother crying, my sister and brother trying to put on my veil as my father waited by the door to drive with me. I was a bit late. But what can you expect with so many moving parts to get us all here at this moment at this Church. I am out of the car, head calm, and the big wooden doors open for me and my dad to walk in. I see so many loving faces, I only got to see yours once I got to the front. The violin and piano surrounded the small Chapel and the mass went through beautifully. I was able to get the words out and we laughed about it. I was very present in the moment, our easiness and trust with each other made everything flow smoothly with no hint of my body wanting to shrink even though all eyes were on us. I think it hit me when we got to the reception, the realness of it. I felt an adrenaline high the entire night. That feeling you get when you are about to ride a rollercoaster where your heart pounds, your body follows the motions but your head is submerged in a cotton candy fog. We danced, and danced and my soul was floating high watching us with our loved ones enjoy our day.
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